In many ways I am totally not the “keeping up with the Jones’ type” In many ways, much to my dismay, I am…. I am totally cool with  driving my sloppy jalopy,  I treasure my garage sale finds. I hate buying “new” clothes! I feel like  buying used is the only way to go. I am not kidding I love, love my used clothes!!!

But I am struggling with this digital life, it is a whole new avenue of “keeping up” and in order to do so you have to be smart, creative,  entertaining, in most cases have an amazing cute product to sell. I feel like I have been banging my head up against my screen trying to force “cuteness” and trying to reach in and find my creative soul… And then I get “smart smoke” rising from my head… NO JOKE!  I love to blog, I love reading and looking at other women’s’ blogs. I love that from one little laptop I can learn just about anything, and share everything. But I hate feeling like I am not good enough. It is like a woman’s curse… or maybe it is just a Rach curse. I want to be Totally awesome at everything I do. And when I am not, I tend to beat up on myself.

I am done… I am so super done with feeling inferior to MYSELF. So where does this leave me…   I am learning that in life many aspects are meant to be for the enjoyment of one. That one being me.  I am going to work hard at enjoying the things that bring me joy. And spend time rejoicing for all the Mommy blogs out there that totally rock!