I wonder how many “hospital moms” or wives or friends are out there tonight? ( I know I totally sound like Delilah) But really for the last 10 years I have been a “hospital mom” and I have been an awesome one. I was created to be Minnie’s mommy. I was created to live the last 10 years battling in the hospital and the Lord made me perfectly for it. The thing is… She is better! PRAISE GOD!!! But who I have learned to be is lost. I know I am not alone. It might even be tabo to say it out load… but who am I now? I am sure there are many other “hospital moms” asking themselves the same question. When your child/husband/friend is sick you pour every ounce into helping them get better. But what happens when life is all better, or even worse what happen when life just moves on? You have to find a new normal… What is my new normal? I keep praying, I keep asking the Lord to show me who he wants me to be. Who am I NOW? I have learn so much I am sure it was for a purpose… But what? I am going to keep seeking God’s direction. I know he has plans for me… outside of the hospital. I hope I can listen to his mighty voice and follow.
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Good thing you are also a really good mom everywhere else you go. During all those years you were hospital mom you made major impressions on so many people’s hearts, and left so many people better people. I have complete and total faith in you that you will make the switch splendidly and that you will continue to reach people’s hearts in whatever area that God has planned for you!
I was thinking along these lines just the other day Miss Rach. Things were going smoothly for the first time in a long time and I realized I could not let my guard down and enjoy it. My job, over the course of the last 20 years has become to be prepared…to look out ahead and fend off the next big disaster because it IS coming. The sad part though is that this perspective demands that you be in control instead of letting go and accepting what comes, knowing that’s the way it is supposed to be.
Hospital moms, moms of kids with different needs, moms who do too much…we’re all in the same boat and need to recognize that our real job is to accept that we’re not in control. SUPER organized, heck yes, but not in control…and that’s ok! <3
Wow Rach… this is seriously powerful… and something I have never even thought about… I think it would be like if monkeys 1 & 2 just suddenly didn’t have autism anymore… it’s shaped who I am as a mom and our family functions around it… thank you so much for sharing and being real! Love you girl!!! Was actually just thinking about you today excited to see you this summer and have you guys up!!
Good Morning Rach Well the first thing I’d is Praise The Lord that this stage is passed and whatever He has for you do will come and you will do what you have always done Do What You Have to do! He is this strength that got you guys through the pass 10 years and He has promised to Never Leave You Or Forsake You! Love Gram Just keep on keeping on.
Thank you Best friend for reminding me about the many lives that we were able to touch during this time. I am sure (with the amazing support from you) That the future is full of hope and promise. I am a blessed woman.
Teri, Looks like it is time to let our hair down and get a little crazy! Gasp… Could it be that we are allowed to have a little “organised” fun! My hope is that we both can lift our eyes up to the heavens and be thankful that he has planned out our path… As hard as this is for me. I need to learn to rest easy in his constant.
Linz… Being real about not knowing who you are at 32 is crazy hard… You need to know that your “realness” has impacted my daily life. By reading EM I have learn the being me… who ever that is, awesome. You and Gena are doing something amazing… You are helping woman find a voice. We can’t wait to see you and your family this summer. Keep up your awesomeness!
Yes sweet Gram in everything give Praise… I am so thankful please don’t think that I am not. It is a blessing beyond my wildest heart. I just need to sit in his grace and listen for his next command for my life. I am so thankful that I have an amazing Gram who Keeps on keeping on!