We have a sick little girl. She went into surgery again on Thursday to remove fluid from her back that had been slowly building up since the 22nd. The Doc said he removed around a liter of fluid from her back. She was in a enormous amount of pain prior to surgery, I was really hoping and praying it was all due to the fluid build up… But when she came out she hurt as much or more as before??? She got a temp Thursday night, come to find out Friday afternoon the fluid in her back was harboring an infection called gram negative. She has had this before but systemic “start praying that it does not come to that”. She is only taking a few bites of food here and there,we have been feeding her by G- tube. She has lost three pounds… Her legs are continuing to get stronger, her left leg weaker than her right and hurts a lot. She is scared that she is telling her legs to do things and they aren’t “listening”…Her heart rate is very high I think it is due to pain and her temp. I could go on and on, the big picture is please pray. I am sorry that I have not posted. I am at my breaking point right now. I know I need to have faith, I know that the Lord is here, I understand if I give this over to him I will have peace beyond understanding. But in real life I am tired, I am emotional, all I want is for my baby to get better, so I can take her home. I want to be with my boys in my bed in my house in my shower with my clothes eating my food. Please understand I love the Lord I know the times we are in the Valley’s are the time’s we get the closest to him. But I don’t think that anyone realizes that there are two sides to this story. There is a positive Growth in the Lord side and a negative curl up in a ball in your closet side. But still growing just in the dark…. I happen to very rarely show the negative, the poor few people who have gotten close to me and have seen that dark side… oh yuk. So I am going to try and be a little more open about “reality” and both sides of the story.
Now a little bit of the other side:
27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”
28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
29 “Come,” he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
30 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?
When Minnie Got her Halo I told her this was the closest she would ever get to being like Peter and walking on water! Little did I know that she would be asked to learn how to walk again, So I finished the story about Peter. I told her how when he saw the wind he was afraid much like she is when she is trying to walk and she is afraid. I told her how Peter cried out to the Lord to save him, and he did! I told her we can do the same each time she is trying to walk. We just need to call out to him and he will be there.
This is true for all of us no matter where we are in Life as long as we call out to the Lord he will be there. Have faith that he will catch you when you fall. Don’t doubt that he will save you. We are all his Lambs.
I pray. All the time. I pray that the Lord gives you peace and patience. I pray that he wraps his arms around you and comforts you both. I pray that he heals. I’m amazed by both of you everyday. I know this all sounds cliche and redundant, but you both are so inspiring. And honestly Rach, I pray that I can be half the mom you are. I love you both so much and will continue to pray for both sides of the story.
I am so proud of you for sharing! I know that is hard. I love both sides od you and I don’t think either side of you is yuk. As I was reading this post I thought about how God didn’t just use happy/positive people all the time as the vehicle of his light. Jeremiah the prophet was always sad and morose but not because he didn’t love or believe in The Lord but because he saw pain and suffering. I know that you will endure because The Lord loves you and also because you have so much light that it won’t stay closed down for long.
Dear Jesus I pray that you give Minnie an overwhelming sense of your presence and that you not only mend her body but that you comfort her heart and mind. I pray that her pain be cast out of her in your name. I pray that the recovery gains momentum and that you make it able for her to go home and be in her own space with her family all together. Thank you Lord for blessing us with this amazingly cool child. May you be glorifies through her healing.
I pray that you give Rachel strength, grace and protect her mother’s heart. Come beside her when she is in need and help her keep going past any breaking points. Thank you Lord for giving me such a beautiful best friend who I Cherish. I pray for understanding and communication between her and the doctors. I pray for you to give her the words and strength to advocate for her child. I pray for Josh and Tyler to have strength and love in all the things they have to attend to. Please protect their hearts and love on them.
Thank you for your love Jesus in the light and in the dark. Amen
Rachel, I am praying for you. I know that your mommy heart is hurting right now, but you have faith beyond measure and that is getting your through the pain. I will continue to pray for you, and Minnie every moment of everyday. I love you and I am thinking of you non-stop.
We love you guys and pray for your little angel she is so strong please know hat she is in Gods hands and he will strengthen her hang in there sweety wish we were closer so we could help
We are definitely praying, I’ve been awakened almost every hour for the last 2 nights and I pray for Minnie! God is faithful all the time, in the valleys as well as on the mountain tops! Love Mema/Mama
Have you ever seen such faith? She puts us all to shame who complain of our lot in life. I admire this woman more than I can say, more than any bible teacher I have ever heard, any preacher, any one!! I know the Lord is pleased with you Rachel. I will be your companion in this struggle, in prayer and in the patience you show as you wait on the Lord.
Good Morning Rach and Minnie , He is able to do more the we ask or think because His Spirit is at work in us.Esh 3:21 and we just need to keep calling Jere 33:3 I’m on my way to your Mom and Dad. Love to all Gram
It always seems toughest to take the first step each day. But you have to walk before you can run.
God is walking through this with you both. He will not leave you now
We love you Minnie! We believe in your strength. God is with you. He will give you strength and comfort. You can do this! Wish we were there to give you both hugs!
Praying here.
I realize that you don’t know me, but Lagene gave us (the people at Stamp TV) the link to your blog. I just read your post and I want to encourage you to keep speaking the truth about your situation and your frame of mind. Even the dark feelings you have are a glory to God because you’re still crying out to Him in the midst of those feelings. You’re acknowledging His Lordship even from that dark closet you spoke of. That, too, is a sign of growth. I’ve been there and had those same feelings and I know now, looking back, that speaking the truth about my feelings was just as important as my declaration of scriptural truth. So keep on telling the truth about your feelings. It’s a good thing and a glory to God! I will continue to pray for your precious Minnie and the rest of your family.
Certainly praying for you all..especially this dear little girl that the Lord would strengthen her body and bring about healing. Know that many are keeping you close to the Lord in prayer (those you know and those you don’t)… Being honest of your feelings is important and what you are feeling is so normal, we are but flesh. I pray He gives you the strength you need moment to moment…
Certainly praying for you all..especially this dear little girl that the Lord would strengthen her body and bring about healing. Know that many are keeping you close to the Lord in prayer (those you know and those you don’t)… Being honest of your feelings is important and what you are feeling is so normal, we are but flesh. I pray He gives you the strength you need moment to moment…
Rachel and Family~ Our heart is full of some many emotions for you all. Please don’t feel bad for being honest about your feelings. We know how strong you are and that you have been a pillar of strength for everyone to see. As 2 Corinith. 12:10 says-“when we are weak, we are powerful.” We love you all so much.
I, too, want to encourage you, Rachel, to RUN into the Name of the Lord for He promises you safety there. He is your Rock that cannot be shaken, your Song in the night, your comfort when comfortless, your Refuge from the onslaught, your Strong Tower of protection against doubt, fear, anxiety, and anger. He is…so you can be strong, unshaken, comforted, protected, loved, and carried. He alone can lighten the heavy load. He will bear you up in His arms…Don’t take your eyes off Hope…our Lord Jesus Christ…you will not be disappointed in Him…He is faithful to accomplish His Word spoken into and over any situation. I don’t know you but I am standing with you in faith for total restoration and healing for Minnie and will continue to pray—BELIEVING—that “whatsoever things ye/we desire when ye/we pray, believe that you receive them and you shall have them.” Standing with you and asking for the manifestation of God’s Word / Jesus / Who IS Healing be manifest in Minnie’s body all for His glory & honor!!!
Continued prayers for Minnie and your family.