We have a sick little girl. She went into surgery again on Thursday to remove fluid from her back that had been slowly building up  since the 22nd. The Doc said he removed around a liter of fluid from her back.  She was in a enormous amount of pain prior to surgery, I was really hoping and praying it was all due to the fluid build up… But when she came out she hurt as much or more as before??? She got a temp Thursday night, come to find out Friday afternoon the fluid in her back was harboring an infection called gram negative. She has had this before but systemic “start praying that it does not come to that”. She is only taking a few bites of food here and there,we have been  feeding her by G- tube. She has lost three pounds… Her legs are continuing to get stronger, her left leg weaker than her right and hurts a lot. She is scared that she is telling her legs to do things and they aren’t “listening”…Her heart rate is very high I think it is due to pain and her temp. I could go on and on, the big picture is please pray. I am sorry that I have not posted. I am at my breaking point right now. I know I need to have faith, I know that the Lord is here, I understand if I give this over to him I will have peace beyond understanding. But in real life I am tired, I am emotional, all I want is for my baby to get better, so I can take her home. I want to be with my boys in my bed in my house in my shower with my clothes eating my food. Please understand I love the Lord I know the times we are in the Valley’s are the time’s we get the closest to him. But I don’t think that anyone realizes that there are two sides to this story. There is a positive Growth in the Lord side and a negative curl up in a ball in your closet side. But still growing just in the dark…. I happen to very rarely show the negative, the poor few people who have gotten close to me and have seen that dark side… oh yuk. So I am going to try and be a little more open about “reality” and both sides of the story.

Now a little bit of the other side:

27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”

28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”

29 “Come,” he said.

Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”

30 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?


When Minnie Got her Halo I told her this was the closest she would ever get to being like Peter and walking on water! Little did I know that she would be asked to learn how to walk again, So I finished the story about Peter. I told her how  when he saw the wind he was afraid much like she is when she is  trying to walk and she is afraid. I told her how Peter cried out to the Lord to save him,  and he did!   I told her we can do the same each time she is trying to walk. We just need to call out to him and he will be there.

This is true for all of us no matter where we are in Life as long as we call out to the Lord he will be there. Have  faith that he will catch you when you fall. Don’t doubt that he will save you. We are all his Lambs.