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Have you ever for even one minute thought about what it would be like to go to collage with your child? No for real… Just think ahead … Your baby’s are getting ready to leave the nest… but you want to hold on to them for dear life…. This is why the Lord has them leave just about the time when you are in menopause or nearing menopause! Sharing a dorm room with your almost adult child when they are busting to get some freedom would be torturous. for you.. I PROMISE, it would not be the party that either of you expected. This I can speak truth to… I am in menopause… I know I am only 31 but the Lord thought ahead so I could help all of my girlfriends out, and so I could gain so sympathy for our mom’s… He I am sure did not think that I would be rooming in with my tween daughter FOREVER… that living in the hospital room is like living in my closet with my daughter with nothing to wear. . But she is sick and I have to be sympathetic and I am really doing my best… I have never known the test of how patient I really could be… I am still learning.  I do feel like we have been put in some hot water and left. But us two girls we are getting stronger together…  but the poor people around me, hum well lets just say…

I really do feel like my mood is changing from one minute to the next. I feel like with Minnie I need to be extra patient… even when I don’t FEEL like it… This is really stretching me… every part of my whole being…. menopause or no menopause  everyday is a choice, I may make the choice to let the day really get to me. I did today, I really did. But I can choose to wake up tomorrow and let the son shine…

 

 

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Hospital land, a land where every day seems to collided with the next. I feel as though I am Alice and I have fallen down a bunny hole.  I am frighten, I can not find my way back to my Castle. I feel broken, when I fell down that bunny hole my heart was shattered. I left piece’s of it behind as I walked into this Land.  This Land is beautiful, I am trying to keep my eyes open I don’t want to miss a thing.

The king of my Castle is strong, he is a warrior. He is keeping the pieces of my heart safe. The King is tender with our prince. and has treated the princess like a rare jewel, she know she is valuable.  The king of my Castle is teaching me how to have grace, trust, and respect.  And without even knowing it he made me a Queen.

I left our Prince at my Castle, his life has begun to change from moment to moment yet he has learned to accept and keep going. He has become a Knight… He has placed on an armor and has been fighting this battle not in sacrifice. This prince has a heart of compassion and it is so soft when he see’s the princess in pain. He is getting a voice like a lion and is learning when he can use it. Our prince has grown up in a wink,  I have missed so much… That piece of my broken heart will never repair.

In this land there is a princess, when she arrived she brought with her a special way of making things grow. She was like a bright red rose flinging through out the wind like a flash of color, bringing joy to all.  She has many protectors that go into battle for her. They fight endless  hours and countless days trying to deliver her safely back to the Castle. The Princess has many warriors that fight on their knees for her. They have grown to adore her as they watch her grow stronger.

I once was just a pile of thorns, then along came my King, my prince and my princess. I never would have have had life grow up through the pile of thorns if I would not have taken time to watch my little family grow. To let each one of them bloom into who God had intend on them being. To step back and enjoy the special way he created them. I could not be Queen if I did not learn from each one of the mistakes I have made while loving the King of my Castle and my prince and princess.

 

If my family takes away one thing in life… I want it to be this…..They are valuable… not only to me but to our Lord…If I accomplish this I will be a blessed mommy…

Life’s battles

How do they make it with out you Lord? I had a hard time pulling myself up this morning just know I’d have to answer Minnie’s tiny little voice saying she did not want to do this any longer. What would I do if I could not help her turn her worries and fears to you? I understand Lord why families divorce now, this is hard and sad. There is hurt, anger sadness. Pain is all around us, all day everyday. When is it ever going to get better or will it ever? My heart is breaking not only for myself but for this hospital everyday. You are a faithful God, how is it that you are all around but people can not see you at work. You are mending Minnie’s body each day, you are a Great Physician. Heal the eyes and souls of the people around us.

I have been blessed by meeting a Mommy in the hospital recently who shared with me a bit about herself and her family. She first touched me by telling me how she felt blessed that she was not in my shoes. And that she felt so blessed she was not me! Then she went on to tell me she felt blessed that she was not going to have to be in the hospital for as long as us… I to am happy she does not have to be here that long! Then she told me how she was in a accented that took the life of her 9 year daughter and made her son paralyzed from the waist down. I just looked her…. and with great surprise I said…. I have two kids that are ALIVE…. walking and breathing…. I AM BLESSED…. I am the one that does not want to be in your shoes sweet little mama…. but you see I looked at her and I asked if she believe in the Lord right…. and she said yes….

This is the difference… Not that it is easy or make it better or any really makes the pain any less…. But when You have Jesus on your team he can share your pain he will help carry it. When you feel like you have been kick in the gut so much you need to puke, he will hold your hair. He is a God who is there when you call on him. He answers when you knock. And he Forgives. It is amazing Grace… I know that sounds cliche but it is true. You don’t have to walk though life’s battles without a shield.

Take sometime and ask our heavenly father to protect you… he has big big arms… and a big big house…

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